When I studied with Tara Judelle in Bali last year, she encouraged us to journal immediately after our practices, meditation as well as asana. When I’ve actually taken the time to do it, I’ve found it to be a tremendously valuable way to process and integrate whatever I’ve experienced in the practice. There is something about writing longhand immediately after a practice that infuses the experience into my cells. And it’s great to be able to look back on both the highs and lows as encouragement to persist.
Here’s my journal entry from the other day about my meditation experience. May it be of some use to you.
Today was one of those days where I closed my eyes and immediately arrived into a parallel universe. It felt like landing into a miraculous, bright clearing in the forest with no memory of having travelled there. I felt as though I had arrived in a very familiar place, but one that keeps changing location – like in Lost or some other sci-fi drama. Shards of sunlight stream down through the tall trees. My clearing is warm enough to expose bare skin, yet cool enough so that the breeze’s sweet caress enlivens the skin that it touches. The air feels clean, cool and crisp in my nostrils. My body feels light and spacious and tall. There is a feeling of utter calm wellbeing and expansive focus. It is effortless awareness, restful, invigorating, and healing. Every cell is vibrating, sparkling, scintillating with life, with potential, with passion yet to be expressed.
When I noticed the edges of my awareness darkening or a vague sense of unease creeping in, I checked my posture. Immediately aligning to my vertical axis and grounding myself, snapped everything back into that lovely gift of effortless boundlessness.
There are many ways to get to this ‘clearing’. Some days, I search without finding it. Other days, it may take some time to find a brief glimpse of it. Some days as I sit in the clearing, there is a parade of thoughts that streams past. And then there are days like today. While all experience in meditation is valauble, it feels almost as if Mother Universe is rewarding me for taking the time and space to sit. Today’s blissful sit was a kind of luxuriant reminder of why I bother in the first place.